So....let's see here...what do I have to say....
Life is flowing along nicely. I wake up everyday and take it head on. Mr Puppy, AKA Keeper is fitting in nicely and adding love, and laughter to our lives.
Work, well it picked up. Getting more then I can handle, and that is just how I like things! The best thing about this job is that it is impossible to master. Everyday is different somehow. A challenge to overcome. Problem to solve.
Haven't had a lot of time for a social life, but I have been working on cramming it in.
Was dating somebody, but well...that was short lived. Don't get me wrong, she is amazing. Sweet, funny, affectionate, doting just all around great. Fact is she started pressuring me for a commitment, and when that didn't work, she said those 3 little words....So yeah it freaked me out. When that didn't net the results that she wanted, she basicaly decided she can't date me anymore.
Truth is, I respect where she is coming from. It's just that I feel it is more then likely infatuation. Well, that and she seemed to basicaly ignore a lot of what we talked about at first.
That I am poly usualy. That Riley and I just broke up, ended an engagment that was basicaly 6 or 7 years long. Stopped planning a wedding and a life together. There is no way I am at a point to commit to anybody, and it wouldn't be fair to them if I did. That I don't always fall in love with somebody. That even if I do, it takes a long time. Just a lot of important things I let her know up front, seemed to come as a huge shock to her all of a sudden.
It always makes me wonder....when I tell people this stuff....do they think it just doesn't apply to them? I mean, somebody says this stuff to me and it lets me know to enjoy what they have to offer, and not worry about more. It will come in time, and if it doesn't there are a lot of good memories.
So it's a shame, she really is a great person. In a lot of ways it's my loss. If we are lucky, in a few months we will have a friendship. If not, good memories I will cherish.
In other news....the LesBeGamers group is doing pretty well. We have had 2 meetings. The last one was a blast. Had 2 hotties show up, so I went into total shy auto pilot. Pretty sure I made an ass out of myself and I stutted the entire time lol Learned a new game I had been dying to learn for years...now I must buy it!
Mike and I are planning on going to Reno Pride this year. We (and by we I mean Mike) are doing the research and runnig the numbers....so YAY!
I am also getting closer to my Wii Fit bundle package....just gotta manage to save money instead of taking care of everybody else....
Trying to figure out how to find people to date again. Feeling like I am finaly ready to get out there and give it a real go. Feeling a lot better about myself, my place in life and what I have to offer...so basicaly...Bring it on!
Later Days!

( Feast your eyes )

Today is my brothers birthday. He and my mom banded together to beg for me to make my pot roast and baked tater fries. Since I won't share the recipe it turns into an event. My son, and his other parents are also coming.

I am going to make an attempt at sharing the pics so far. Sorry, but I forgot to get a pic of the roast pre crock pot numminess

Recipes:

Fries

4 cloves garlic
2 tablespoons beef or chicken boullion
Bowl of water
4-8 taters cut up in thin slices
Olive OIl
Salt & Pepper to taste
In our case we use Adobo and Pepper

1) Wash and slice taters
2) In a bowl combine all but the olive oil
3) Soak for 1-5 hours (depends what your family likes)
4) On a cookie sheet lay out foil
5) Sprinkle Adobo and Pepper over taters
6) Bake at 425 until golden brown and a bit crispy

Pot Roast Suggie Style

1 Roast 3-4 lbs should be more then ok
1 Can Rotel
1 Carrot
1 Onion
4-5 Garlic cloves
1 Package Sazon
1 Bottle or bag of sofrito (I made my own, the bottle is just for the pic)
3-4 Taters cubed
Adobo
Pepper

In a crock pot combine all veggies, sofrito, 1-2 cups water. Smother roast in a combo of the adobo, and pepper mixture. The adobo will be salty so please keep that in mind! Add meat to crock pot, as well as package of Sazon. Cover and cook on high until roast is at desired tenderness. My family like the veggies mushy, which is why I add them early...but that is totaly up to you!

Enjoy!
 

While many people believe that lemmings commit mass suicide when they migrate, this is not the case. Driven by strong biological urges, they will migrate in large groups when population density becomes too great. Lemmings can and do swim and may choose to cross a body of water in search of a new habitat On occasion, and particularly in the case of the Norway lemmings in Scandinavia, large migrating groups will reach a cliff overlooking the ocean. They will stop until the urge to press on causes them to jump off the cliff and start swimming, sometimes to exhaustion and death. Lemmings are also often pushed into the sea as more and more lemmings arrive at the shore.

Have a magical way of healing ones soul. Even if there isn't a resolution, just the talk. Something about rehashing things, re evaluating, and seeing them from anothers point of view. Every once in awhile you can even manage closure without having to revisit the situation or individuals you are talking out.

Seriously, friends are like our everyday superhero. They are all to often taken for granted, forgotten, or somehow otherwise dismiessed. Of course, they accept it, and often don't think twice about it because they do the same thing.

Yet look at how amazing they are. There to pick us up when we fall, gllue our broken hearts, give us soup when we are sick, laugh at us when we make cheesy inside jokes, watch the movies that we are to ashamed to tell our other friends about, and if need be, just be period.

Today, I am taking this moment to put this out there for all of my friends here. As always, I will try and take moments  here and there to thank the superheros in my life.

The LAST person I mentioned and I are no longer talking eithier but she is NOT with my ex friend. That is the person I was dating before her, that I wrote a lot more about in here and my blog on myspace. The LAST one kicked me to the curb for treating her to well *shakes head* Womyn are SUCH stupid salads!

On old lady voices…

Ok people…I know you hate these…or rather love to hate them. This is one of my thoughtful observation posts.

I was on a red eye flight from SFO to Dallas last night. Right now, I am on an early am one to Ft Myers. Its funny how flying as a fat boy is bad enough, but as a disabled one it’s just plain gruesome. However, life is what you make of it, as are the situation in it.

With that in mind I set out on this trip with high hopes, tons of patience, lots of smiles (or what passes for them with bells palsy) and low expectations. Which, I find is the best way to go about air travel in this day and age.

Overall it went smoothly, a bit rushed. Not treated very well at the security check in by somebody on the last 5 mins of her shift. But overall it was smooth and I was grateful.

It was on that red eye that the idea for this blog came rushing at me like a cheerleader to pom poms.

See, my mom and I got seated together on a 100% full flight…for once being a frequent flyer mile customer pays off! When we got to our seat, there was an elderly woman sitting there. My mom had boarded first because this damn laptop didn’t want to shut down. 

As I am approaching you see the horror creep into her eyes. You can also see the attitude form. She even tried avoiding eye contact. I guess someplace in her mind, if she didn’t look at me I would either lose 75lbs, or magically have another seat.

When I finally get there, in a butt load of pain mind you…I smile sweetly, and ask in my very sweet retail customer service tone “Excuse me please, I seem to have the middle seat”. She literately snarled at me, but got up. With groans though and tried to rush me into my seat.

As I sat there waiting for the plane to take off, I tried to think of ways to charm her. Not an easy feat as a mostly shaved headed, fat boi dyke, in the middle seat of a packed red eye plane. I mean this would rank right up there I think with teaching our past presidents the state capitols and how to spell tomato. She began to speak with her friend across the aisle…..my ears I think may have begun to bleed instantly.

Why? Because she and her friend both had old lady voices. Now I had never really noticed this phenomenon before. But sitting there as one of about 200 passengers young, old and everything in between it became crystal clear.

Think about it….as kids we have one, and then over as a teen, as an adult we have yet another one….but in old age there is another very distinct one. One that goes from zero to nagging faster than a NASCAR ramming into a sidewall.

When does this happen? Why don’t we notice it? Can we stop it?

While I am at it…..when do we lose clothing choices?! Have you noticed that suddenly the fashion goes from jeans, polo’s, slacks, board shorts that kind of stuff…to Hawaiian print shirts, leisure suits, white loafers, floral prints, and matching knit sets?

The world may never know……

Single is…

Or rather should be…..

Enjoyed for one. Who says that you need another person to complete you? If you do need that, what are you in fact lacking within yourself? What can they provide that is essential to your breathing or existence? Did you not exist before them? Will you not continue to do so when and if they are gone?

I mean let’s face it. Before Mr. or Mrs. wonderful was in our lives we had lives! We had good times and bad. We created memories. There were accomplishments, achievements, trials and tribulations.

It’s a chance to grow. No I don’t mean into those big boi pants that you have had your eye on for months. I mean into an even better you. You can take a class, read a book, start a new workout regimen, and meet new friends. This leads us into the next thing.

It is a chance to broaden our horizons. Open your eyes! Look around you! There is something new to learn and do every day! Somebody new to meet! They don’t have to end up your new BFF, but each and every person that we come into contact with changes the course of our lives in some shape, way or form.

When you are single it’s time for you to look yourself in the mirror and say something like this to yourself:

“This is MY chance to seize life, live it by my own rules, and please myself. This is MY chance Become an even better me! I don’t need ANYBODY to be an amazing SOMEBODY! I AM an AMAZING somebody!”

It’s a chance to rejoice. In life, love, friendship, family, and the fact that you have been gifted with another day on this plane of existence that we all share.

Last but not least…and I hope the most obvious…..

Single is NOT the end of the world! It is the end of your world the way you knew it for whatever period of time. BUT……

It is the birth of a NEW world, a NEW you, and NEW experiences in life. Welcome it with open arms, an open heart, open mind, and patience. With a good attitude about it, it can be the best time in your life.